My Addiction

I don’t know why lately I’ve seem to be so emo. I literally could cry over the stupidest things. I also feel like I have no friends. No one really wants to hang out. I sit at home till I can finally get someone to hang with me. Both my BFFs have “girls” and I hate being third wheel. I HATE being third wheel. I can’t stand it and I will leave. Also honestly another reason I’ve had bad experiences with new girls/ girlfriends for my guy friends. I don’t want to go tho all that again. I’ve been tho it enough that I just don’t want to get close or get to know them. It’s much easier that way.

Idk anymore. I don’t know why I try so hard anymore. I feel like I don’t get the appreciation I deserve and it sucks.

I got a bomb dropped on me last night. I’m trying to wrap my head around it. Texas? What the fuck is in Texas? This sucks. I told my best friend last night… He didn’t take it too well. I haven’t seen him like that in a while. I’m not going down without a fight tho. If I have to move in with someone or get my own place I will. If I have to get another job then so be it. I’m not fucking going and that’s the end of it. I’m just hoping that grandpa will say no. *crosses fingers*

A-fucking-men. You break my trust, it really hard to get back on my good side.

A-fucking-men. You break my trust, it really hard to get back on my good side.

The people that mind, don’t matter. The people that don’t mind, matter.
I #love this place. So #relaxing. #calm and #pretty. Can’t wait to go back there. It never changed ,only I did. I love looking at both these #photos and realizing I’ve come a long way. 😄 #lake #vaca #vacation #boat #water #sunset #2011 #2013 #awesome #goodtimes #memories #swimming #instacollage

I #love this place. So #relaxing. #calm and #pretty. Can’t wait to go back there. It never changed ,only I did. I love looking at both these #photos and realizing I’ve come a long way. 😄 #lake #vaca #vacation #boat #water #sunset #2011 #2013 #awesome #goodtimes #memories #swimming #instacollage

God when I talk to this kid, he brings out my demons out of me. He doesn’t do on purpose but it’s like I’m looking in a mirror sometimes. I care about him but he is really starting to upset me. Grrrr. Guys are so stupid and mean.