I’ve been in pain for the past oh I don’t know 5 days. Each day it gets worse. I went to the doctor yesterday and it’s not what I thought… I now have to wait a couple of days before I go back and take another test. Im not sick enough for them to know what is wrong. Great. I keep crying cuz idk how to make it go away and feel better and also I’m scared. I just want the pain to go away. I mean its not unbearable, but it’s constant. Now it’s getting hard to talk and eat. These next couple of days will be hell.
Ernie and I caught a baby bunny. Something is wrong with it’s leg. 😭It’s so cute. Poor thing….😩 #bunny #baby #cute #poorthing #sad #hurt
Watching the #storm at the park with @beckabiitch. I caught this huge thing of #lightening #park #thunder #love #happy #calm #friend #bff #goodtimes
Idk what happen this last couple of weeks but I got all these guys wanting me/ wanting me back. Like seriously? Why all at once. I got one guy that won’t leave me alone and I wish he would. He isn’t good for me. (Fuck him!) Then I got one willing to cheat on his gf (Fuck that!!!!) Now the guy I wanted like months ago is trying to get at me.(Like really?)And the other one is complicated. (Whatever…) I don’t get guys. They can be scum and so confusing. I need a guy that wants me and only me. Too much to ask?
Whatever. Super sore. My back hurts and my head. I’m running on 2 hours of sleep. No fucks were given last night and I finally let loose again. It was ALOT of fun even tho I’m paying for it today. Need to party like that again.
I’m still not talking to one of my friend. I’m still too mad at her. I get that I’ve made some mistakes in the past and what not but she is no fucking better. I just can’t trust her and she can’t trust me so really what’s the point of our friendship. She should of stayed out of it. She shouldn’t of said something. She wasnt is even right with what she said which only made me look worse in the situation and he doesnt really believe me. She has told me stuff that others confine in her. She even admitted to telling others when she was asked not too. What’s worse is I confined in her stuff I don’t want ppl to know. I get she in a weird situation between “friends” but it’s best to stay the fuck out of it and let them figure it out. I don’t need someone to play referee. I just need someone to listen to me. I bottle things up and when I finally talk about it, I just want someone to listen. They don’t have to give me advice or take action. Just knowing someone is listening to me is fine for me. But I do expect u to keep it to yourself. This is another reason why I bottle things up cuz I don’t want everyone to know how I feel. I’m not saying I’m a perfect secret keeper. I’ve had my fair share of big mouth syndrome but I work on it with that person. Karma at its finest. I know I was wrong but I think I’ve proved that I got her back. I just don’t want to talk to her or see her. I feel like I will explode on her and that def won’t fix it. I’m just so pissed off at her….. I can’t trust her. Hell I can’t really trust anyone at this point. I have some major trust issues and I don’t know how to fix it…
